reincarnation

My sixth new blog? Why not, I say! After a long hiatus, the signs of blog withdrawal were rearing their ugly heads.

Sign One:
Off the work blog. My writing is too fuddy-duddy. Even writing the words fuddy-duddy makes me a fuddy-duddy, no? I'm not cheeky in a good way. No longer considered a clever word-smith. Let's just say it, I'm OLD. Surrounded by recent grads eager to make their marks in NYC -- why should they settle for the boring middle-aged woman from the 'burbs? Guess when this happened? After I stopped blogging. I stopped creating. Stopped feeling and putting down observations. I lost my edge, I've become comfortably numb (thank you Rodger Waters).

Sign Two:
Rants on political blogs. Yep. Got into a good one last week. Pointing out anti-semitism in a campaign poster for the Green Party candidate for Mayor of NYC.
But, it got a dialoge going and the offensive image was removed. I made a friend or two who thanked me personally for pointing out what seemed to me a glaringly obvious slam on Mike Bloomberg. Just not cool.

It's time. I can feel it coming. The block is lifting.

I've started back at work full-time, and I'm managing a project that actually is making a difference. Its time consuming and working with kids who come to the big city full of dreams of fame are usually not at their most diligent while thinking of their next audition or performance or date...whatever it is. I know how they feel. I've been there. At the end of the day, the project is successful and they are doing what they need to do.

However, the part of me that needs to be focused on finding people to interview, coming up with interesting questions to ask someone you basically know nothing about and then try to make their responses compelling and sometimes even just coherent is amazingly draining. Four years of trying to make the most common people stand out in a crowd. Don't get me wrong. Once in a while, I hit the jackpot! It's a crap shoot everytime. You never know what you're going get to work with. I suppose this is the nature of the beast.

The wind-up is: practice, practice, practice. Read, read, read, Hone, hone, hone.
search, seek, research, write. edit, rewrite.

Then after all of that, I need to code it and post it. I wear a lot of hats, I feel.
I'd love to take a few coding classes, programming, something. Everything I know I've learned out of necessity. Its that 'Just Do It' mantra we have at Meetup. And, I love that. If you have an idea, its up to you to make it happen. The problem for me -- I'm an idea person. Not great with the follow-though. I'm learning though. I like the results, so I'm getting involved in the process. Hence, the full-time work.

So, I will rant here. rave here. cry here. laugh here. discover, inform, project, object, relay, grumble, sigh and dream here.

when it comes to staying on task.